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Today is a new day. After much debate with myself, I've decided that fasting is a bad idea. #1 it'll fuck up my metabolism and my body will cling to the fat I have to survive. #2 the second I start eating again, my body will cling to those calories instead. Restricting is a better idea today. Especially since I have class and work. I'm a waitress so I need to be on my feet all shift and I want to be in a decent mood so I can make good tips.

Sep. 16th, 2010

So I feel guilty when it's my mom's birthday dinner, just me and her, and I don't want to eat. So I over compensate by eating some of the bread and oil they put out for an app, and then getting a drink with my meal. The drink was good though...acai pomegranate mojito. I ended up getting a mozzarella and tomato sandwich with salad greens for the side. And I took half the sandwich home for tomorrow to eat during my break at work.

Now I just need to go for a five mile run because I feel like such a pig. Not to mention the fact that she offered me birthday cake afterwards. My biggest weakness is this particular kind of cake that I get at a local bakery every year for her birthday. It really is the perfect cake...and I only had one slice, but because I ate the dinner, I feel too full, which makes me feel like I did something wrong.

Dammit. Maybe I'll just fast tomorrow instead. I hate this.

Sep. 15th, 2010

Self recovery sucks. I'm not any happier than I was before. And now I'm back here. Here it goes again.

STATS:

ht 5'4''
hw 160s
lw 134
cw 148
gw1 140
gw2 130
ltgw ??

Nov. 23rd, 2009

even though no one posts here anymore, it's ok. I'll still post from time to time.

I hope my lovelies are staying safe

May. 17th, 2009

I'm back and I'm here to stay
Anyone in the US wanna text? I have unlimited

message me :)

Apr. 14th, 2009

finally back after a long hiatus, only to discover nothing has changed...hmmm

Mar. 24th, 2009

the gym is kicking my ass...it hurts but I love the pain. esp. in my ab, no doubt about that
spring break next week. only one more class to go!! I'm definitely not going to french because I just don't feel like getting bitched at for stupid reasons. taking a nap after that and then finally re-joining the gym like I said I would do days ago
:)
ok well, money's been a bit tight lately, but since I'm currently ahead of my payments, I'm going to rejoin the gym :) can't wait to start going to spinning classes again. those things kick my ass like there is no tomorrow