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Today is a new day. After much debate with myself, I've decided that fasting is a bad idea. #1 it'll fuck up my metabolism and my body will cling to the fat I have to survive. #2 the second I start eating again, my body will cling to those calories instead. Restricting is a better idea today. Especially since I have class and work. I'm a waitress so I need to be on my feet all shift and I want to be in a decent mood so I can make good tips.

Sep. 16th, 2010

So I feel guilty when it's my mom's birthday dinner, just me and her, and I don't want to eat. So I over compensate by eating some of the bread and oil they put out for an app, and then getting a drink with my meal. The drink was good though...acai pomegranate mojito. I ended up getting a mozzarella and tomato sandwich with salad greens for the side. And I took half the sandwich home for tomorrow to eat during my break at work.

Now I just need to go for a five mile run because I feel like such a pig. Not to mention the fact that she offered me birthday cake afterwards. My biggest weakness is this particular kind of cake that I get at a local bakery every year for her birthday. It really is the perfect cake...and I only had one slice, but because I ate the dinner, I feel too full, which makes me feel like I did something wrong.

Dammit. Maybe I'll just fast tomorrow instead. I hate this.

Sep. 15th, 2010

Self recovery sucks. I'm not any happier than I was before. And now I'm back here. Here it goes again.


ht 5'4''
hw 160s
lw 134
cw 148
gw1 140
gw2 130
ltgw ??

Nov. 23rd, 2009

even though no one posts here anymore, it's ok. I'll still post from time to time.

I hope my lovelies are staying safe

May. 17th, 2009

I'm back and I'm here to stay
Anyone in the US wanna text? I have unlimited

message me :)

Apr. 14th, 2009

finally back after a long hiatus, only to discover nothing has changed...hmmm

Mar. 24th, 2009

the gym is kicking my ass...it hurts but I love the pain. esp. in my ab, no doubt about that
spring break next week. only one more class to go!! I'm definitely not going to french because I just don't feel like getting bitched at for stupid reasons. taking a nap after that and then finally re-joining the gym like I said I would do days ago
ok well, money's been a bit tight lately, but since I'm currently ahead of my payments, I'm going to rejoin the gym :) can't wait to start going to spinning classes again. those things kick my ass like there is no tomorrow